Now got to face with reality again. I feel such low self esteem again. I hate it :[

I’m so scared for my parents’ health, my sister’s, and also mine as well since all of ours might be or will be in danger.

I’m frustrated because of all my summer classes and limitations.

It’s really hard with money and people thinking I’m rich. I’m not. I either hustle or my parents bust their asses off like crazy even though they are so sick.

I got to focus on my education and good grades yet my heart, my feelings and my social life is changing so much. It hurts so much but got to pull through. Slowly finding my true friends and who are really there and make me happy and the ones who are just for work or i need to get the job done or connections.

Being reminded, bump into, see, or any of that stuff about your ex or old flings really hit you hard at time. Questioning why didn’t it work out, why did they end up this way, am I not worthy enough, what’s wrong with me. Those type of things

High expectations from others and others have given up all hope on me (my parents especially)

Man. This sucks. I had one of the best days ever in my life then it just comes crashing down.