I know what I have to do. I don’t know what I want. I don’t feel like myself anymore. I have motivation yet, why do I still feel so depressed. Am I ready? Am I stuck? I didn’t mean for this to happen. I’m not sure. I don’t want to get hurt. I didn’t mean to hurt you. Why did it come to this? Can you accept me? Me and you? Who does my heart belong too? Does my heart want to lock itself away again. Why do I want to party and waste my life doing meaningless things. I’m just so lost and confused. Not getting what I want or realizing who you are is not who you said you are. Things not working out. I have more of my school priorities in check but what about my social and love life and family life. I don’t know anymore. I don’t want to mess anything up. I accept everything yet, I’m still upset. All a phase I must surpass.